Day 4 of this self careathon brings to mind a time where I used to have panic attacks before school. In the end, I would lay down cuddling my cat, listening to the sound of her heart to calm me down and I could lay there for hours.
I’m happy to say I’ve come a long way since those times, but I do still love a snuggle with my cat. Susie is a 14 year old black cat who has been in my family since I was 7 years old. She’s always been a very jumpy cat, known for hiding underneath our oven except for when she was lured out with food for weeks after we first got her.
Susie was the runt of the litter and was a tiny scrawny little thing when we got her. She was timid, but eventually started to gain confidence and venture out to explore. As a kitten, she used to enjoy hiding in the bushes next to our next door neighbors bird table and would jump out on them. As she grew, she brought home her fair share of animals she had hunted (mainly birds, but a couple of mice).
However when we moved house for the third time, she wasn’t as interested in the outdoors. There were a lot of other cats in the area and I think that intimidated her so she preferred to stay indoors. In 2016, when we moved into our flat, Susie became a fully indoor cat, who is now actually an elderly cat with no teeth left after a surgery last year. She still hates noises and visitors, but she is very cuddly and affectionate and I am happy to receive snuggles from her. I love my little Susie so much even if she is a grumpy old lady now. It’s part of her charm really.