A lot has happened in the last 6 months. I’m trying so hard not to dwell on the past in a negative way because what happened has happened and I’m just trying to move forward. The only way I want to look at the past right now is to see how I’ve grown and improved and that’s why I’ve written this post.
I’m sorry to deceive you but this post probably isn’t going to help you get over a breakup. Just like the hundreds of posts I’ve read this week haven’t necessarily helped me. It’s a learning process. I feel like I’m 100 years ahead of the girl in this photo, crying with my friends at a Trdelnik shop and then posing for this photo to send to my friends at home to say “I’m okay I have cake now”. So yeah, step 1 is just eating cake and crying.
So, I’ve always had this ideal world in my head that I’m going to go traveling and all of my problems are suddenly going to be fixed. I thought that I would feel better just for a change of scenery and I’ve learned the hard way that this isn’t the case. If I stop and think about how I’m feeling right now, I just start to cry again (which could partly be because I’m on my period). I am working my way through the packets of tissues I left at the bottom of my travel bag that I kept as an emergency toilet tissue stash while I was traveling around Thailand. So here I am in Prague with depression and anxiety.
I wish I had been blogging back in January when I was thinking of my new year resolutions, but unfortunately, I was busy being trapped in an unhappy relationship and I wasn’t putting myself first as much as I should have been. So, looking back at the last year, I’ve been trying to put all the big life changes into perspective and think about all that I have achieved.
I thought today would just be an update of my mental state and to be totally honest, it’s not great for me at the moment.
It’s been a while since I last posted on my blog and in the name of Blogtober, I am back. Today I’m just going to explain some things that have been going on in my life and have a bit of a mental health chat.
I have suffered from mental health issues for years and it is something that has affected all areas of my life including work, friends, family, and travel. I love traveling and I would say that it helps my state of mind more than it hinders it, but there are days where you feel depressed and there isn’t anything you can do to “snap out of it” even if you’re in the most beautiful places in the world.
This time of the year is unfortunately associated with some bad memories for me and I think about the past a lot, wondering what I would change if I was able to. So I’ve decided to give some advice to my 16-year-old self. Besides not bothering with the haircut.
I am currently signed off sick for my mental health, which was the first step I made towards my self-care. I had stubbornly refused to accept that I wasn’t coping at work and pushed myself to the limit until I wasn’t able to go anymore. It has been a tough journey for me this year, but here are some of the things I’ve learned and the methods I use to try to help myself get better.